ito ang tama!

currently listening to: matchbook romance - the greatest fall

last night was one helluva gig! i dont know why pero sobrang kinabahan ako kagabi. when i got settled in na, rica points to me and gives me a nasty grin. pucha, bigla ulit tuloy akong kinabahan. magsosolo na kasi eh! hahaha! overall, it went ok. as expected, the peeps appreciated our version of the 80's hit eternal flame. astig. astig. astig. sarap tugtugin nun! PANKSNATDED!

mark also like our new song, "bittersweet"...he came short of saying that that is our best song to date. catchy melody, malalim yung lyrics, complicated sounding guitar riff (with matching solo! san ka pa?! hahaha! just kidding...)...wala lang...nakaka LSS ulit itong kanta na to. galing talaga.

as expected, mayonnaise was their usual tight self. galing talaga! tapos monty was doing his usual "showman" antics! hahaha! usher eto! malaki at malapad na usher! they had the longest set...as requested by the owner of saguijo. galing. they played their usual songs...dahil, bakit pt. 1, bakit pt. 2, aircon, jopay, at yung parang metal na hindi na maganda. hehe! "needless to say that i was going for the kill..."

i miss my swordphish na! bwahahaha! as if...oh well... :/

kabado sa solo...bwahahaha!

currently listening to: open hand - 11th street

hunyeta! gig na namin later...ayus. di ko pa rin saulo yung solo ko...bahala na! come what may. hehehe...kaya yan...ika nga ni jc: "we're professionals!" yes! lakas!

btw, one of my bosses arrived today. i'll talk to him about my trip later. sana maayos na lahat. hunyeta! yoko iwanan ang mga meron ako dito sa pinas although pera ang kapalit...

...tulad ng napagusapan namin ni meville (opismate ko)..."tangna pare, kaya mo ba yun? bibigyan ka ng pera kapalit ng saya? may pera ka nga, malungkot ka naman. ano'ng kwenta nun?!"

well, its also hard for him to leave because he'll be leaving his baby and wife behind. he's leaving for the states on saturday with an open ticket at hand. he hopes he can make it on his kid's first birthday cause he wasnt around when his wife delivered the baby.

goodluck dude...

....we all need it.

hanep

currently listening to: feeling left out - amanda's poem about unicorns

ayus. my boss arrived here at manila earlier today. the moment i arrived, he approached me and asked me about the status of my mandarin classes. i explained that the classes were postponed last week and i was trying to look for a 2 to 3 sessions a week classes. sabi niya: "kaya mo yan! laki laki mong tao, kinakabahan ka!" langya, ano kinalaman ng laki ko sa pagiging kabado ko about a job!? weirdo! hehehe...anyways, bahala na...basta i told them about my situation na, well, its up to them kung magfail ako.

...then again...

shit, maiiwanan ko na talaga yung SC next year...at least for a couple of months. :( dammit. pagbalik ko, marami nga akong pera, may mabalikan pa kaya ako?

plus...si swordphish pa. :(...

anyways...later, we will be jamming again for tomorrow's gig. (dammit, di ko pa memorize yung solo ko sa "bittersweet"). hehehe! bahala na! im kinda excited for tomorrow's gig because monty said that it will also serve as their victory party because they won the recently concluded red horse musiklaban. congratulations to mayonnaise. sana wag kami kalimutan ah. hehe! jam daw ako sa kanta nila. langya, la ako alam except yung verse ng jopay. hehehe!

tagal ko na rin di nagsusulat sa blog ko ah...nakakamiss din pala...

the suspense...its killing me.

currently listening to: razorback - ikot ng mundo

pucha, wala pa ring reply si boss...ayus..the suspense...its killing me...

deadman walking

currently listening to: trapt - echo

i couldnt stand it anymore. i emailed my boss about my situation. i hope everything gets better. maski na sisantehin pa ako. maski na ireassign ako. its just that i feel i cant do what they're asking me to...plus, medyo half hearted pa talaga ako iwanan ang sc.

chino of the itchyworms! emailed me earlier...he said that they're fixing up the next Last Full Show productions....astig. sama daw niya kami. he asked for info about my band. well, chino is from unilab which is my former client when i was in stag. he knows that i am also into music and i just formed a band recently. astig. mabuhay ka pare. :D sana lang, di magconflict with work or whatsoever. leche...ang trabaho nga naman...nakakasira ng mga pangarap!

'nuff said!

on having problems...problems...and more problems

currently listening to: dashboard confessional - vindicated

funny...i saw ja at mini shabu shabu at GH last night. di ko pa masyado namuhkaan dahil iba na itsura and all...but i was correct siya nga. anyways, i dont want to divulge the details anymore. i was just shocked at what i saw.

tapos it just hit me...

why does everything bad happen to me? you work your ass off for somethign you really want tapos its either you wont get what you want, you do not get EXACTLY what you want, or when you get it, something happens and it is taken away from you.

of course i am not only referring to my ex...but to all the things that has been happening to me. it really seems na if you find a reason to be happy...there's alway something that would make you feel sad. this maybe what they call the beauty of life and living it...but i dont know...something tells me that i dont want that to happen. i wanna be genuinely happy. without other things to think of......then again...that's fucking impossible.

life sucks...indeed.

intermission ulit...

dashboard confessional - vindicated

Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of it has caught my eye
And roped me in
So mesmerizing, so hypnotizing
I am captivated, I am

Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
I swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself

So clear
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intention
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me
So isolated, so motivated
I am certain now that I am

So turn
Up the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment, fall forever
Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'll be in
Too deep now to ever swim against the current
So let me slip away
So let me slip against the current
So let me slip away

My hopedangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption...

china man in the freaking house!

currently listening to: the killers - mr. brightside

yesterday, the higher ups here in the company emailed me that i was going to be the project manager for the project in china. that means...ill be leaving for china on oct 13-20. something like that...then, next year, i will be deployed there for around 5-7 months. :( fucking shit man...first thing that came to my mind was my band...tangnang yan! :( tapos...yung mga maiiwan ko dito siyempre. hassle. ewan ko. pero makakaipon na ako ng pera after nun. ewan ko! naiirita ako.

when it rains...it really fucking pours!

currently listening to: suspicious character - here and now

i just got a text message from rica saying that she needs to go back to bacolod and she wont be able to play on friday. ewan ko...part of me got really pissed (although di sa kanya) siguro dahil na rin sa bad timing and all. its already tuesday and i dont know where i will get a sessionist to study all of our songs or a replacement band. ayun...after settling down, siyempre naawa naman ako. pucha. hassle nga rin mamatayan diba? like a friend told me...you lose a drummer only once...you lose a relative forever. yeah. it hit me...maybe im just a bit fucking selfish. sorry. condolences rica. hope everything goes better.

i called up pow (of hiraya)...he agreed to session for us..problem is..with so little time, will we be able to make it? im going to give him a cd of our tracks later and make him try to study the songs for friday. i hope we all make it on time.

thanks pow..sana kaya mo.

the theory of convergence at work...again

currently listening to: further seems forever - say it ain't so

aaaah, lara's so called theory of convergence is at work again. why is it that when you feel happy, you suddenly hit a brick wall and become sad again?

it feels fucking good to be emo again.

the good thing about it is i will be able to write songs again.

life sucks....enjoy!

bittersweet

currently listening to: suspicious character - here and now

last night we finished up a song called "bittersweet" we'll debut it on friday at saguijo. im really really excited cause its a new song and it doesnt sound like any of our other songs....well, that's whats pretty neat about us...so far, none of our songs sounds the same. each has its own distinct sound. astig. astig. astig. nuff said.

...teka, may solo pa ako sa bittersweet....daaaaamn. hahaha! thanks for believing in me guys. astig talaga kayo.

we're also going to do our version of the bangles' eternal flame. pota! pank na eto!

last night was one helluva night...indeed.

sa wakas...

currently listening to: fenway park - she

wow! it feels good to be online again...i had training on vendavo for the past week...dammmmmnnnn....there was no internet connection in the training room so i havent had the chance to check mail and post here in my blog...umpisa na rin ng 2 year bond ko...daaaamn. pero ayus lang. i think they'll be sending me abroad...most probably in china for a deployment.

hmmm...a lot happened this past week...last night, we had another jamming sesh...and im pretty excited for our gig on the 17th...we're doing a cover of eternal flame. (yep, the song lara sang when she was still a kid in one of those singing contests. bwehehehe! panalo eto!). sana lang, wag umuwi si rica...her tita is having problems daw eh...i hope she gets better soon. ey, lara! thanks for the cds!

tekawaitsandalilang, wala akong masulat...my mind is freaking burnt out from the training...hehehehe! :D

working on sunday

currently listening to: the sundays - homeward

dammit! i missed one saisaki buffet because i needed to go to work today. we had to setup more than a dozen machines for the training that will start tomorrow. haaay...gerdamit! im tired! good thing about this is that the boss will take us out to dinner one of these days and after the training, we will take a day off. :D yebaaaa!!!

yesterday was one helluva day...one of the happiest in a looong long time. hope you had fun too. kelan kaya mauulit yun?! bwehehehe!!! havent been in ATC for a long time, tapos i bumped into an old friend pa. ayuz...nachismis tuloy ako kagad sa ibang tao...ayun...panalo talaga. hehehe! pero ayus lang...la naman yun eh.

i got a copy of parokya ni edgar's new release...inuman sessions vol. 1. ayus eh noh?! parang incubus ang dating! hahaha! well, im just surprised because this is supposed to be a live album...but when i checked the inlay, it said there that it was recorded in a studio...whoa...ano ba talaga? nakampota, nanloloko ba kayo...or mali lang basa ko? but it is a great album nonetheless....francism (which i grew up medyo idolizing) is on the cd for 2 tracks (the yes yes show, and kaleidoscope world). astig! havent heard him in a looong time na. JC! balik mo na francism ko! hunyeta!

how come we dont know when love begins?

currently listening to: holding hands - untitled

funny...i got this very weird and funny feeling that im being played around with. its a funny, scary feeling that i dont wanna think/feel about...and im damn scared about it.

intermission ulit...

mayonnaise - aircon

Ang lamig,lamig dito..
O kay lamig ng aircon.

Araw-araw sinusugal,
Para lang matanaw,
at makita ang iyong mata,
na nakatingin sa iba.

O kay lamig, lamig dito,
O kay lamig, lamig-lamig, mo.
Sa iba? Sa iba?
Ano ba ang meron sila?
Sa iba.

ano nga ba? :(...

emo mode...again.

currently listening to: the rocking horse winner - from miles away

today, i arrived at the office at around 7:10...10 minutes late. dammit. ang aga naman kasi eh. we have a webcast training session until friday...next week, there will be a technical training upstairs at the educ center. while walking along paseo de roxas earlier today, it just hit me again...life is really one helluva mothafucka! its a cycle that doesnt end at all...you study, you graduate, you work, you get married, you have kids, you age, you die...then your kids will also follow the cycle. parang, neverending eh noh? ooor, wala man lang something to look forward to...which led me to wonder...ano kaya meron after we die? medyo nacurious talaga ako. hmmmm...

shoutouts: hi swordphish! bwahahaha! wala lang.miss mo na ako? just kidding!