on having problems...problems...and more problems

currently listening to: dashboard confessional - vindicated

funny...i saw ja at mini shabu shabu at GH last night. di ko pa masyado namuhkaan dahil iba na itsura and all...but i was correct siya nga. anyways, i dont want to divulge the details anymore. i was just shocked at what i saw.

tapos it just hit me...

why does everything bad happen to me? you work your ass off for somethign you really want tapos its either you wont get what you want, you do not get EXACTLY what you want, or when you get it, something happens and it is taken away from you.

of course i am not only referring to my ex...but to all the things that has been happening to me. it really seems na if you find a reason to be happy...there's alway something that would make you feel sad. this maybe what they call the beauty of life and living it...but i dont know...something tells me that i dont want that to happen. i wanna be genuinely happy. without other things to think of......then again...that's fucking impossible.

life sucks...indeed.

intermission ulit...

dashboard confessional - vindicated

Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of it has caught my eye
And roped me in
So mesmerizing, so hypnotizing
I am captivated, I am

Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
I swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself

So clear
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intention
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me
So isolated, so motivated
I am certain now that I am

So turn
Up the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment, fall forever
Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'll be in
Too deep now to ever swim against the current
So let me slip away
So let me slip against the current
So let me slip away

My hopedangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption...